35 weeks

Dear Sawyer, 

Here we are in the home stretch. 
A little less than 5 weeks and youll be here. 

5 more weeks and my life is going to be forever changed.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't terrified out of my mind.... just a little bit.
I wonder what youll be like, and look like.
I wonder how very much I will love you the instant I see your beautiful face.
I worry about being the best mother I can be for you, and simultaneously for Mckemy. 

I am excited for you to come. 
That may or may not be a little influenced by the fact that I fee like my body is falling apart;
and it would be nice to for my entire pelvic region to stop thriving in pain.
But that is absolutely not to be overshadowed by my excitment to love you, and to kiss you, and to hold you.

There is still so much to be done, and decided before you get here. 
Most importantly, how you will arrive. 
Everybody is wondering which path I will choose for your delivery, and I guess Im just waiting to see how things go. Because truly, this is between me and you, with lots of help from up above.
Im praying, fervently, that you and I will be able to figure this thing out.

I guess all thats left to say is that I love you.
Wholeheartedly.
And I cant wait to meet you.


1 comment:

Tyah Ferguson said...

You look great! How exciting! It is almost time to meet the new little munchkin! Congrats!